You're the pretender.

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in... again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are at the ready
Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense
Spinning infinity, but
The wheel is spinning me
It's never ending, never ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one.
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time or so I'm told
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you?

[The Pretenders - Foo Fighters.]

I'm not meant to be a Christian, is it that hard for that to fit into your world church view of things?

I'm stubborn and I love to be stubborn. I have my pride and it is an asset, my strongest one to boot. I will never surrender. Not to anyone, never to God again. I kicked him out because he was dominating my life, stealing my identity and making me suffer for no reason. oh wait, for his glory, right.

Get this, I am strong, I am seasoned to be strong and I will only be stronger. I will survive or die fighting, It will be all MY effort, not God's. I am strong in will and character, this is who I am and who I want to be and who I have to be to survive. There is simply no room for a God whose intentions for me is not known.

Only one person can be the master of my life. Me.

And the person that has not let me down is still myself. No longer pretending it's God.

so who are you?